Hourglass thoughts.

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 09:41:29 -0500

Today Larry said he underestimated my desire. He would have chosen me as the 1st 5 to take the penalty if he know how strong my desire was. this brings me back to my little nightmare, what if i took one of those penalties.

My desire to win is always and will always be strong, stronger than anything else. i am so sure because it has been proven time and time again, i will resort to almost anything to win legally.

but not taking the penalty that day was something that has haunted me for a long time. i witness so many of them missing. i know what i wanted to do if i were to take it. i had it all played out in my mind. which corner i want to put it. but my doubt was, my ability to handle the pressure.

the only reason why i didn’t volunteer to take it was because i was scared. i nv handle pressure well. ever since BPGHS where i had to win every match that i played. i suck at handling pressure and that is why i didn’t volunteer to take the penalty. and we lost.

what if i took it, i scored, and it turns out to be the winner. i finally got through all these what ifs, and today, larry and the gang put these thoughts into my head again. i don’t know if i will score, or if i could handle the pressure, but i keep thinking i should have volunteered.

idk if i’m being rated too highly, or i really can do it. idk how other people see me, but to be told that i would have been in their top 5 to take e penalties is quite an honor actually. i should be happy. but i’m not.

what if i took 1 and i scored. what i have will be a gold medal. a glory that will last forever. a penalty taker in the final of a tournament. what if it’s the winner.

what if. what if. what if.

I’m shuheng. I don’t understand why would you bother to lie to me when there’s a...

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 13:41:58 -0500

I’m shuheng. I don’t understand why would you bother to lie to me when there’s a very high chance that I’ll find out u lied.

CONFIRM LIKE GIRLS WHO USE THEIR HAIR TO TIE A PONY TAIL.

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 12:02:20 -0400

CONFIRM LIKE GIRLS WHO USE THEIR HAIR TO TIE A PONY TAIL.

CUTE

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 11:51:50 -0400

CUTE

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LOVE THE HAIR

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 11:44:35 -0400

LOVE THE HAIR

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Thu, 19 Apr 2012 06:24:26 -0400

NAIZE

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 06:15:56 -0400

NAIZE

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Sat, 11 Feb 2012 13:15:42 -0500

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surferdude182: (by thelittlestquesadilla)

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 13:07:21 -0500

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quote-book: (via the notebook doodles: someone like you.)

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 12:56:13 -0500

quote-book:

(via the notebook doodles: someone like you.)

"Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention..."

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 12:54:41 -0500

“Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves.”

- Albert Einstein (via quote-book)

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 12:53:42 -0500

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"When I wake up, I have to remember all over again that my dreams are not real and that reality is..."

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 12:49:38 -0500

““When I wake up, I have to remember all over again that my dreams are not real and that reality is not a dream.””

- Thanks for the Memories, Cecelia Ahern. (via quote-book)

quote-book: DENNIS WHOLEY

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 12:44:06 -0500

quote-book:

DENNIS WHOLEY

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